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had lunch with xiao yi a coca... food was rather nice.... thumbs up!!! shopped ard and went home during late afternoon... hahaha... raining very heavily when i was on the way home.. dear was back from camp but had to go back tml morning... sad... then sunday then come back... so sian... miss him a lot...

Written @ 9:40 PM

continued my surveys together but luck doesnt seems to be with me... only earned a bit today... maybe its due to the black shirt i am wearing... hahaa... anyway i had tried my best liao... but those ppl jus refuse to help me with the surveys.. rather discouraged abt it but after lunch i felt much more confident... hahha... didnt know why but i think maybe i am hungry jus now... my leg was almost going to break... walked a lot.. really a lot... i think i am not go down town for a period of time after tml... its jus so so so far from 1 end to another.... weekend is coming.. i am so happy... can see dear liao after a total of 2 weeks... dear where shall we go this weekend? looking forward...

Written @ 11:52 PM

i am tired..... walked a lot today jus for the sake of doing the surveys... luckily effort still paid off.... today's quotas was better than yesterday... so must rest early today to strive for the better tml.... i think bro is better after the counselling session from the school.. hope he really know and understand what he is doing... jiayou ho.... i can sense dear's concern through the sms he sent.. thus i am happy today.. not only becoz dear is concern abt me and also i think bro will start to change himself for the better...To Bro: really hope that u can think in a positive way, do not give up on yourself as dad,mum and me will support u..... To Dear: i know that date to brunei is getting nearer, u really will miss me a lot(haha.. i guessed)..but this is a matter which is hard to escape so jus face the reality coz i will be with you together at heart...

Written @ 10:47 PM

went ard orchard with wanli to work as surveyor... its so tiring... the sun is so very the big and shining.... earn only a bit of money... and wasted 1hr doing nothing becoz of the stupid yellow cell... reached home at 6plus and had dinner with mum.. she cooked the mee fen.. very nice... its been a long time since she cooked this... tml got to work again... i must try my very best to do as much surveys as i can tml... dear i miss u a lot... really hope that u can be ard to advice me on how i shd help me bro... u are going to brunei next week le.... started to miss u a lot now... though we didnt talked a lot on the phone, i know that u really care and concern abt me... hope to hug u now.... hehehe...

Written @ 9:28 PM

went to hand up the surveys and had chicken rice at far east... tml get to work in the streets for the surveys... happy abt it as i can earn more money.... how can i help my bro... he told my dad he didnt wan to study liao... how am i as a sis to help him..... didnt know what to do... i know if he concentrate he will be able to do it de... but he jus refuse to try... i wonder what will give him the inspiration to get on to his work and study... i tried to talk to him nicely liao but it does not seem to work.... i offered to help him with what he didnt know but he reject.. am i going to see him rot this way???? hope that dear can be ard to tell me what i can do... but till now he still havent call.... i am lost.. dear pls advice me on what i can do to help my bro i really dun wan to see him go on this way....

Written @ 10:39 PM

was at home the whole day... this is the first time in which i never meet dear when he booked out... he didnt get enough rest and he need to accompany his parent and also no money liao so bo pian must stay at home... sad... in another 2 weeks time he will leave for brunei liao... rather sad abt it as i maybe cannot go and send him as its a midnight flight... 2.30am... must really discuss with my parents.... tml going to give the surveys papers back to andy liao... really tried my best in finding ppl to do the surveys for me liao.. but unfortunately still left with 3 more pieces... hope andy will not say anything... will try once again tml morning... its been a long time since my whole family had dinner together... we had dinner together at geylang-frog leg porridge... followed by tau hui(soya beancurd) then followed by da pao cheesecake home from baker's well... the one and only fantastic cheesecake found in singapore... hahaha.... i miss him a lot... regretted as never go out with him.....

Written @ 11:18 PM

went to wedding shop with jingjia, pin, xiao yi and mum... pin and jingjia going for their rom next month... so went to chose the rom's gown... she looks jus that different when the gown is on her.. she so slim lo.. almost all the gowns she worn had to alter if she decided which one she wan... then went to xiao yi's house and wait for dad to come and fetch us for dinner at paramount restaurant... actually not going with them to for the dinner de coz felt rather bad as neglected dear... but luckily i went with them coz dear when out with his friends without telling me then luckily i never go and find him lo if not like so paisen... the dinner was ok lo.. its ala carte so didnt get to eat that live prawns cook from soup... that restaurant have the best and freshest prawn in town so far... thumbs up... felt so angry and sad now... will stop here then...

Written @ 11:58 PM

nothing to do at home thus went to look for my mum... so sian at home... hai... the administrator's job is not meant for me.... the company wan someone who can work till dec.... dear went chalet.. didnt know whether he will be going home a not.. unable to find anyone to do the survey for me... sad... must be braver.... approach ppl.... will try my luck again tml.... jiayou...

Written @ 7:37 PM

unable to resist the temptation from the shops... saw a formal cum cute skirt from double index... to han and karen: i saw a skirt which i probably will buy after i get my first pay.... finally found 1 which i may buy.... hehehe happy abt it.... went bugis with dear's sis... initially she is the one who wan to buy the skirt then in the end i also bought a shirt, belt and a shell pendant.... the shell pendant was cheap... $6.... cheap right... sad la... actualy only wan to spent $20.... but in the end spent $40... tml must work hard on my surveys liao.... so can earn as i spent... haha... dear sounds tired after today's training... he is going to his friend's chalet tml night.... so must be tired de... dear ar... must rest well k.. dun play till forget to rest.... take care... miss ya...

Written @ 11:21 PM

went orchard today to collect the surveys.. so sian.. alone... ate chicken rice at far east.. the chicken rice no longer taste that great.... also ate my fav potong red bean ice-cream... taste fantastic... had to save money so didnt go shopping.. sad... must save money to buy that pant from osmose... took 190 back and met this young lady named Iris.. her daughter was really cute.. she did a piece of survey for me... talked through out the journey and i start to realised that being a mother is not that easy... she read a lot of books regarding young children's learning and she told me abt it... thanks for helping me and providing me with the useful info... dear went je's swimming complex.. sian... everything first time he also did with other people except me... hai... but nvm.. coz we havent go zoo together... hehehe...

Written @ 11:50 PM

disturb by andy's call but didnt pick up the call as i am still sleeping..... so early.... had to bring down the remaining questionaires to orchard then i was like sian lo.... then some more bring down liao andy not in then cannot collect the new project's survey's paper... must go down again tml... waste my trip there lo.... went to meet han as she is passing the survey's paper to me... thanks han... i nearly got lost... walked from alexandra hospital to somewhere close to queenstown mrt liao... so tired and hot lo... me and han were blur.. haha.. i headed to ikea thinking of eating the hotdog bread but my leg was tired so decided to go to anchorpt to eat shrooms burger... sat there for abt 45mins.. ready to walk... hehe.. took 195 to queenstown mrt and change bus 970... this bus damn long then come... reached home abt 430pm... had fried rice for dinner... with the new chilli made by mum.. the fried rice taste even better... haha... suet, where are u huh? y never hear from u.... dear is booking out tml in the afternoon but.... too bad he is going out with his friends.... thought of tagging along but after considering decided not to go... although really hope to see him even from far, i know he will not enjoy himself and i will think i am a burden to him as he needs to entertain me.. sad... hope he is getting better le...

Written @ 10:40 PM

stayed at home the whole day to complete the surveys but still cannot finish...had no choice but to bring the balance 16 to orchard for him first.. left 4 more to go but received a call from andy jus now and he told me that dun need to do liao jus pass him the papers tml and the person can find 4 malays.. stress was released... can focus on the new project- parenthood.... will try to fufill the quotas... was late for the briefing due to the stupid 190 which met the traffic jam for 20mins i think.... then no time to grab something and eat... went straight for the briefing... was hungry till 8plus... went to marche to buy hotdog bread... the chilli sauce was so spicy... done 1 piece of survey le... the other piece on grandmother de han do for me.... going to orchard tml to give the papers... so sian.... maybe meeting han for lunch haha... da bao yoshinoya for her...hehehe...dear is sick... got flu... still must training.. so sian and sad for him.... he going brunei in less than a month's time... sad... i know he is going to suffer.. dear u must take care hor... miss u a lot... love u... must jiayou careful...

Written @ 11:36 PM

slept late last night as i am worrying abt the quotas which i cannot met... till now i still have so many which haven do..die liao le... woke up early as i cannot get to sleep... went bugis with dear and his sis..... was rather hungry and bought a roti-boy and share with dear.. haha... didnt have a proper meal till dinner.... we walked from 1 plus to 5pm... omg... my leg is so tired... during the shopping, dear bought a shirt and a long pants and his sis bought a blouse... i suddenly felt stressed.. as i had came back to the problem which had no solutions... i am helping myself by looking through the shorts all that liao.. but the shorts dun look nice on me and they(the clothes) didnt let me have a chance to change my dressing... sad abt it... dear kept asking me why but i jus told him nothing... i jus didnt how to tell him... sad... i am sorry dear

Written @ 10:39 PM

stayed at home the whole day.... as mum is alone at home, didnt bear to leave her home alone... haha.... dear was sick and i am not with him... sad... hope he will be fine..... sorry dear... went to causeway pt with mum in the evening... this lady here kept looking at 1 of the lady in ah kun's bread shop... after watching then laugh and laugh... dunno what she is laughing ask her also dun say... but see the way she laugh i also start laughing... dad bought 3 lanterns set... so funny... we already so big le still buy this kind of things.. but the lanterns are cute la.. tml is lantern festival.... i think is abt 3years back on this lantern festival day, me,dear and a few of our friends were spenting the day at the reservior...... dear u rem ma? hope i can spent this year's this day with u... i wont even mind if its jus an hour.... miss u take care...

Written @ 11:10 PM

went kbox with dear's sis... enjoyed ourselves.... through the session today i realised my chinese language is really bad... pronounce a lot of words wrongly... then so funny lo... my fav song today was sang by jolin-ye man you xi.... hahaha the song so cute.... we used our phone to snap a few photos inside a neoprint machine...

the photos are nice.. but the one i put up is the best among all... i bought a retro necklace today... very happy as very long never buy accessories liao.... after that i went to meet mum at bukit panjang plaza for dinner.... the yong tau foo soup was great and nice.... reached home at abt 7plus... rest awhile then went to bath and decided to start on my survey again.... got a headache as cannot meet the quota.. but will try harder this weekend.... miss dear a lot... heard from his voice jus now like a bit weird... but when i probe him, he say nothing jus feeling a bit sick... so i guessed he may be sick le so i dun plan to go out tml so he can rest.... take care dear... miss u lots...

Written @ 11:40 PM

been going out the past few days so decided to stay at home relax and rest today... and at the same time can save $... started doing my surveys today at home by calling my friends and asked their mums to do... the speed of doing the survey is not that fast... it maybe probably because there is too many questions... but nvm.. i will try harder.... packed my room jus now and realised that i have so many things... luckily mum brought back the boxes for me to put the things if not i think it will be very messy.. thanks mum... dear called at abt 945pm... i think he is too tired le as he doesnt seems to want to talk... i adviced him to go and sleep first then talk tml... but he insisted to talk... i am happy that he did his best to not to neglect me.... thanks dear... this weekend can go out with u liao... exam's over.... i miss you....

Written @ 11:56 PM

went out early in the moring to visit the gym with dear's sis... haha... managed to burn some calories and fats i think.... after which went to the pizza hut and had a very full lunch... regain my calories and fats... sad... next time after gym can only eat yong tau foo soup... more healthy.... bought a pair of earring after the long temptation by his sis... was happy abt it as its nice but sad abt it as its ex... his sis bought a necklace and 2 earrings... the necklace looks great and fantastic... was tempted by the dark chocolate again after i met it at mini-toons... but didnt buy it as i already ate yesterday.... sad... met mum for dinner at the mos burger but i didnt eat... only had my fav ice milk tea... she was telling me abt my bro.. hai... sad.. he jus made us disappointed... dear's leg was pain.. i felt hurt as he is suffering in pain... and that stupid sir of his jus had to make him go for the training... TO the SIR: CANT U JUS PUT YOURSELF IN PEOPLE'S SHOES.... today is dear's mum's birthday... Happy Birthday Auntie...

Written @ 10:30 PM

slept late last night..ard 3am... and woke up early at 745am to go and consult the polyclinic's doctor- Dr N-yi N-yi Tun.... han u dun say i say..hahaha... funny name right.. he is a chinese and we dunno what he is saying..haha.. ok la enough of that... took a bus to orchard to the office(survey company)... andy taught me how to do the survey and i think its ok la... although its long, it pay high... k shall work hard on the survey... went shopping with dear's sis, bought a bag for his mum and spotted a 3/4 pants... but didnt buy it coz must save money first.... tried a number of tops and bottoms but didnt find one which i exactly like except the pant... must start to save up.... work hard on the surveys... oh ya... shared my "reward" with dear's sis-dark chocolate... she also think its nice.... thumbs up... must share it with dear when he book out this weekend... missed him a lot.... dear must jiayou in your training inside k....

Written @ 9:30 PM

yeppy... exam is finally over... time to take a long break.... my shoulder suddenly becomes so light... finished the last paper today..... gonna get a chocolate to reward myself... its hard and hard and hard didnt really feel like doing coz for some of the questions i jus dunno what is the answers and no matter how i try to link i jus cant link... a few moments later my angel(han) became into my mind.. i rem she told me this, "its jus exam.. what u are going to do if u forget all the things which u memorise and u are not supposed to go and take a look at your notes... so nvm.... try to do your best can liao... and at least write something...." this few sentences jus came to mind.... i know that if i dont write anything then this is going to ruin my marks and i am going to fail.. but if i write something maybe there is some chances of marks awaiting for me... i stopped all these wu liao's thinking and started writing... tried to squeeze everything out of my brain... and i think i did it... i finished the whole paper and had a sense of satisfaction... i noe i may not do well but i think this is the only paper i took in my life which gave me a sense of satisfaction... after exam went dear;s house and accompanied him to the bustop to take bus... then i went home... weather isnt that good.... its dark and there is lighting... he was worried abt me... received his call and he asked me to take a cab back... his words are so sweet and caring.... i am so happy.... all this happiness buried the sadness i received today.... glad you are there with me giving me all the recognition... thank you... love you lots...

Written @ 10:59 PM

had a tiring day as not enough sleep... slept at 5.30am in the morning and woke up at 930am in the morning... afraid that i may not be able to cover all the topics for tml's paper, decided to wake up early to study... dear came and look for me in the afternoon after his marathorn... he looks tired... i am greatful that he came and brought me moral supports... with him ard, i am unable to concentrate coz i am jus too happy to see him... hahaha.. guess thats what love is all abt... he went home ard 6 plus and i had decided to finish up the last 5notes... didnt had anything for the day... only had a cup of coffee to wake me up and a sudden urge of orange... haha... jus love fruits excluding jackfruit(most detested by me).... got a warning from him..(pls go and eat if not u will know)... had no choice so cook some porridge and share with dad.... finally finished studying all the things for tml's paper... mission is finally completed after so many days as tml is the last paper... going to his house tml morning... so had to sleep early tonight.... dear u must take care of your leg hor... warning to dear(pls go and see the doctor in the camp on tue if not you are going to get it from me)... divas... jiayou for the last paper

Written @ 11:55 PM

now is already 430am on 11th sep le... didnt manage to blog before 12 jus now... was a tiring day for me... coz its all study and study and study.... till now only manage to find 15mins to blog... then after which must continue study again... must finish whatever which i must finish before i go to bed... manage to insert a lot of things into my brain so i think this marathorn studying is worth while.... i must be strong and tell myself i can finish study by tml.... i think i shd be able to do it.... han i didnt let u down right.. hehehe... TO SUET: must jiayou for your exam and lets go out after all our papers..... i wrote abt u liao hor..... i neglected dear today(10th sep)... went to westmall with him... guessed what.. this careless guy of mine had actually broke his sim card into 2... wasted $25.... hope he will be more careful next time... went to have lunch with him and his sis after which headed home as i need to study for exam... was rather sad abt it as i failed to accompany him... but never mind i am sure he will understand de... coz he had always been a supportive person in my studies.... always there to encourage me and giving me moral support.... dear after my exam i will accompany u go which ever place which u wan to go k... promise.... another 1 and 1/2 hr he had to wake up and go for the marathorn... he must be tired as he does not have enough sleep for the past 2 days... must take care of yourself k.. miss ya...

Written @ 11:59 PM

today is our 4 and 1/2 years anniversary.... glad that we are still together and i know that we will always be together..... told him that i hope to spent every month's 9 hao with him... guessed what he say... he told me... ok but have to wait 1 more year... haha... thats when he finished his ns.... finished the DLE exam le.... the paper was rather hard..... counted my marks and realise that i may fail the paper.... i may only get 44marks... but never mind la.. what is over is over liao... i think shd put my focus on cdev... read through cdev notes jus now and found out that this module is not easy and it can be considered difficult as compared to DLE... i will do my best and hope for the best result which i can produce.... happy 4 and 1/2 year anniversary dear....

Written @ 7:18 PM

stay at home the whole day revising DLE..... i am so sian glad that i manage to finish all the things which i need to study..... tml going to have my first paper le.... rather excited and scared... coz i am afraid that i may leave all my notes in the dream land.... gonna stop here... as i must listen to my darling(han).. she asked me to sleep early..... guessed she is already sleeping like a log.... hahaha.... all the best to 2D01 for your exam.... jiayou.... dear i missed you... happy that u are only booking in on monday... hope to meet u after my paper....

Written @ 11:55 PM

i went library with yun and suet today... inserted a lot of things into my brain... and i am happy that i am going to finish revising my DLE.... i must have confident with myself..... ate KFC and Mac.... 2 fattening fastfood.... guessed i had to reallly really go on diet....hahaha... watched channel 8 9pm show... xinyi is so cute.... liked the way she talked... she is adorable... after my exam.. i am going to bugis to buy that pair of sandal... hope by then got stock liao.... dear finally finally called me in the afternoon liao.. when i was having a nap..... happy to hear his voice.....

Written @ 11:58 PM

i ate a lot of things today.... fried fish noodles, fishball noodles and rice.... too much le.. must go on diet liao... i was at the library today... didnt really insert things into my brain.... had a talk with han regarding the DLE... was rather sad abt it as i seems to be wasting my time copying notes from the AN.... after a cold bath a few minutes agao... had decided to buck up and start concentrate.. and study.... cannot afford to waste time liao... i dun wan to have any regrets over the exam.... dear didnt call me.... i think he is jus too busy.... received an sms from him last night at abt 3.30am... saying he was busy was resting now... and had to wake up at 6am again... from his sms i felt that he seems to be too tired and wanting to give up... dear dun give up k...must jiayou... worried abt him... didnt have sufficient sleep then dunno his leg ok lliao a not... then dunno whether he got finished his food a not.... hope that he can call asap.... miss you lotss... waiting for your call...

Written @ 11:56 PM

been staying at home the whole day to study... actually wanting to go a place with somebody but in the end that person say cannot lo.... sad right... but i had made my day worth.... gonna finished the DLE's additional notes liao... the notes damn thick and sort of repetition for some of them..... but must say that after reading the additional notes i had a better understanding of the lecture notes... i am glad that tml going to the library... so can concentrate more.... hopefully can insert more things into my brain.... haha... till now dear still havent call..... i am waiting for you to call call call.... pls call me now...hehehe... miss you lot... jiayou for your training tml..

Written @ 12:34 PM

its sunday today... thus the most dreaded thing happen again... saw his back facing me and off he went to the bus.... dear went back camp liao... accompany him to lot 1 and took the bus.... he had to go brunei to on 8th Oct... was sad abt it but didnt want to think abt it.... went to lot 1 with dear and his grandma... we went to buy electrical appliances for $10.... cheap right... me and dear bought a fan each and his grandma bought a fan and an oven.... this is the 1st time me and him went to buy electrical appliances.. hehehe.... exam coming soon liao but doesnt seems to have the mood to get on to revision.... maybe its becoz i didnt really understand or like the lecturer... but i will try my very best to study and get good result... hope that i can concentrate by then.... dear i am sorry for the unreasonable attitudes and behaviour.. i know that what i had said may put u in a difficult position... but rest assure that i will kick away this habit... jus to let u know that i cannot bear to leave you so lets faced the problem together.... thank you for tolerating me.... love you always... take care...

Written @ 9:32 PM

had a great lunch with dear at ps eating pastamania... i think he doesnt really like to eat that but sacrifices coz i like... hehe.. thanks dear... we ate 1 large pizza, share 1 pasta, 6 garlic bread and 2 ice tea.... we manage to finish everything.... happy that we didnt waste food... dear said pastamania's pizza is better than pizza hut.. actually i also think so.... after that.. we went shopping.. saw a blouse($49) from POA... went to try.. i think it doesnt really suit me but dear say its nice.... must think over and maybe go and see again other days... had a happy moment having lunch with him.... we headed to OG and HMV and i finally found that $35 skirt's shop... went to try and went him see.. didnt buy it coz find that it doesnt seems to look good on me... sad.... we went on and shop.... ard 4plus... we went home... actually wanted to stay at home and study but in the end went to dear's house.... watched the show together with his sis... the show is nice... 7pm i think channel 8 one.... abt nurses... had some conflict and misunderstanding with dear... but manage to solve the problems we had using the solutions by him... i am sorry... i shdnt only think abt myself... i will try to put myself in your shoes... glad that you had some brain-washing ability to wash my brain... and explain to me.... thanks for being with me all these while....

Written @ 11:45 PM

thumbs up!!! finally finished all the assignments... last day of school today so rather relax..... happy that our presentation went well... this is a pic of 5 of us... thank all for giving me all the wonderful ideas and i am glad that we worked well together.... me, karen and han stayed back and do the final photos be4 handling up... @.com charge pc usage and colour printing so ex... going to broke liao... haha... slept like a log when reached home... i guessed i am just too tired and need to charge "battery" before handling the exam... haha... mum's boss bought 2 box of mooncakes from hk and gave it to us... its so sweet.... didnt really like it.. i must not go and cut my hair again.... think long hair seems to suit me better... didnt really had the courage of taking photos becoz of this stupid idiotic bomb-bastic hair... kinda of sad abt it.... but somthing brights up my day.... dear didnt need to go back camp tml as scheduled... so i can spent my day with him... emotions became ^_^... hehehe... today is the 16th time i updated my blog... dear must rem to come and see k..... its done specially for you de.... allow u to know what i am doing each day.... haahaha...

Written @ 10:30 PM

today is teacher's day.. happy teacher 's day to mdm peng(yhss) and mr soon(kacc) hope you all are getting on fine... i had begin to appreciate the time i had during the practices.. and the advices from the two of you.. thank you ... i was late for sch today.... wondering why my alarm clock didnt ring... spent $7.40 on cab... sian... waste money.... but no choice coz need to hand in assignment.... reached sch at abt 9.30am luckily corina haven collect... end sch early today and went bukit panjang to buy something... reached home at 3plus... took a bath and started doing the MAYC assignment.... finished in evening's time... decided to give myself an off day by watching superstar... kelvin won.... i think kelly is rather sad.... school is coming to an end.. tml is the last day of this sem... time really passes fast... another sem just passed this way... a lady from today's career called to ask me to work...but too bad i cannot coz its an immediate vacancy.. so hope that when i am having my holiday will have job for me.... dear called jus now but didnt talked long as he say he is tired so i asked him to sleep.... i can sense that he is not very over sat booking out.. but i jus told him its ok i will go over and find him on sunday... didnt know whether what i say did help or motivates him... i miss u dear... sunday is coming on its way..haha..

Written @ 11:33 PM